Why oh Why?

I want to be thin....I really do. Then why oh why is it so hard to stick with it??

I am trying, though admittedly not hard enough. I have improved my eating somewhat, but admittedly not enough. I haven't started to exercise, which is something I really need to get with.

So I know all these things, and yet getting my mind completely wrapped around it is difficult. I suppose to a certain extent I am addicted to food, which unlike drugs and alcohol, you DO need in your life. Of course I'm not where I have to eat all the time, but being on a diet does make me think of food so much more than usual, like I have said here before. On the other hand, I don't find myself as hungry when I am at home as I do here in the office, which I attribute to boredom, and that is a problem I need to fix somehow, even when we have no work.

Yesterday though I did print off a weekly meal planner that also include snacks, and have written out a list for things for breakfast, lunch, and snacks. That is especially important for being here at work so I do have food to eat and not be starving. For dinners I am going to pretty much stick with salads with chicken, or things like fish and veggies, etc. Sounds rather boring I know, but it is just easier that way, on me anyway. Don't know about the guys, they'll just have to suck it up, though Hector does want to lose weight too so this should work for him.

Speaking about meals, I am actually going grocery shopping today after work. I can hardly wait...not. I do have a list almost finished, lots of veggies and fruit and fish and chicken on that list too. I will say shopping at the commissary is a lot easier than shopping in a store, say like Wegmans, who has so much in it, like a whole big cheese and wine sections and take-out food section and a really great bakery, etc, not to mention different foods than what the commissary carries. I love going to Wegmans, but while doing this it is better to stay outta there.

This weekend I am going to a wedding so food-wise....we'll see how it goes. And how good the wedding cake is. :-)

But, at least I am still trying and not giving up. I have a ways to go, but I will get there. I will.