Saturday, April 30, 2016
Hmmm....
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Not So Sure About This
I can't say I agree with this. I have tried just drinking water and my brain is inwardly looking at me like I'm nuts and telling me "No, I didn't say I was bored or thirsty! I want FOOD!" It's a nice thought and all, and I wish drinking water would just fix that problem but it doesn't. It's funny how these different quotes try to sound so profound and so simple, and I suppose they are to be motivational and help you with disciplining yourself, but I got to say, they don't work. Not at least with my brain. Maybe because I do lack some discipline when it comes to this. Heck I wasn't even that disciplined when I was in the Marine Corps, what makes me think I'm going to be disciplined over 30 years later?
I wonder if I can make discipline a habit in 21 days too?
Monday, April 25, 2016
Changing Habits
I read somewhere that to make something a habit, it takes about 21 days. Obviously it can take longer, depending on how much I want it and how hard I work at it. My first thought is to start them all at once but as I was thinking that I decided it wouldn't be such a great idea because I'm sure I would fall back on them. So it is going to be one or two things at a time. We'll see how it goes.
On the bright side, drinking water was one of them and I finally have that down pretty well, especially at work. My downfall like I have mentioned before is on weekends at home where I just don't seem to drink much water. I have to step it up on that but I am not going to count it as I do still drink quite a bit of water, I just need to up it some.
1) Cut way back from the sweets. Now this one is really hard for me since I have a major sweet tooth. Maybe I should save it till last? lol
2) Exercise. Yeah this one isn't a fun one either. This is probably the one I should start with. But I need to set up an exercise program for myself and then do it.
3) Starbucks only a couple of times a week. Yes I know it should be never but hey, I don't want to feel deprived!
4) Eat more fruits and veggies. I do like them, I just don't eat enough of them.
5) Keep a journal and log in calories and exercise. This one isn't really hard so I am going to start it first, in conjunction with one of the others.
6) Get up more during the day...like once an hour and take a lap around the battalion. This is a bad habit of mine that I tend to sit all day and only get up to use the restroom. I need to change that, setting an alarm if I need to so that it jogs my brain to get up.
7) Set up menus and stick to them.
And there we go. One habit after another. Let's hope my brain gets with that 21-day program.
On the bright side, drinking water was one of them and I finally have that down pretty well, especially at work. My downfall like I have mentioned before is on weekends at home where I just don't seem to drink much water. I have to step it up on that but I am not going to count it as I do still drink quite a bit of water, I just need to up it some.
1) Cut way back from the sweets. Now this one is really hard for me since I have a major sweet tooth. Maybe I should save it till last? lol
2) Exercise. Yeah this one isn't a fun one either. This is probably the one I should start with. But I need to set up an exercise program for myself and then do it.
3) Starbucks only a couple of times a week. Yes I know it should be never but hey, I don't want to feel deprived!
4) Eat more fruits and veggies. I do like them, I just don't eat enough of them.
5) Keep a journal and log in calories and exercise. This one isn't really hard so I am going to start it first, in conjunction with one of the others.
6) Get up more during the day...like once an hour and take a lap around the battalion. This is a bad habit of mine that I tend to sit all day and only get up to use the restroom. I need to change that, setting an alarm if I need to so that it jogs my brain to get up.
7) Set up menus and stick to them.
And there we go. One habit after another. Let's hope my brain gets with that 21-day program.
Sunday, April 24, 2016
Starting Over (Yes, Again)
Since today is my birthday, I am starting all over again with my mindset:
I KNOW I can do this. Being in California proved that I can and that I can set my mind to do it.
I need to set menus, exercise time, and small goals and get it done.
This is the last year of my 50s and by the time I hit 60 next year I am changing my life and I want to be lighter in it. Not skinny because that isn't going to happen but much much lighter.
So here we are again...
I KNOW I can do this. Being in California proved that I can and that I can set my mind to do it.
I need to set menus, exercise time, and small goals and get it done.
This is the last year of my 50s and by the time I hit 60 next year I am changing my life and I want to be lighter in it. Not skinny because that isn't going to happen but much much lighter.
So here we are again...
Thursday, April 21, 2016
Riiiight
If I exercised in the morning, I would have to get up at 4am, do an hour workout, then go take a shower and get ready for work. I would be sleeping at my desk by noon I'm sure. While I know plenty of people do it, I am by no means a morning person and I just can't see me doing this. I've read advice on how to turn into a morning person, but I just don't think it's happening for me. I realize it is a good idea to get your exercise done and out of the way in the morning but if only my brain thought that too. It doesn't.
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Monday, April 18, 2016
Dieting Isn't Fair
You gain some you lose some. I did neither.
But Hector lost a little over 3 lbs from yesterday to this morning, and I can't figure out how. He had a huge bowl of popcorn, 3 or 4 waffles with butter and syrup for dinner, and a pastry from Basilica's. That's a lot of calories and yet he lost 3 lbs. I only had one waffle (with peanut butter and syrup), my Starbucks, and yes, ok, Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream and I didn't lose anything. I didn't gain anything either from last week which is better than nuthin.
Still I don't get how he has managed to lose 36 lbs in 2 months....must be nice. I could eat exactly the same as him and I can guarantee I wouldn't have lost that much weight. But maybe I should eat exactly what he eats and see what happens, at least for a couple of weeks. The problem I have with the way he is doing it is he isn't doing it in a healthy manner, no veggies, etc, and I keep hearing the same mantra in my head "The faster you lose it, the faster you gain it back", which I have repeated to him. Though to be fair he isn't starving himself either, so we'll see what happens.
But Hector lost a little over 3 lbs from yesterday to this morning, and I can't figure out how. He had a huge bowl of popcorn, 3 or 4 waffles with butter and syrup for dinner, and a pastry from Basilica's. That's a lot of calories and yet he lost 3 lbs. I only had one waffle (with peanut butter and syrup), my Starbucks, and yes, ok, Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream and I didn't lose anything. I didn't gain anything either from last week which is better than nuthin.
Still I don't get how he has managed to lose 36 lbs in 2 months....must be nice. I could eat exactly the same as him and I can guarantee I wouldn't have lost that much weight. But maybe I should eat exactly what he eats and see what happens, at least for a couple of weeks. The problem I have with the way he is doing it is he isn't doing it in a healthy manner, no veggies, etc, and I keep hearing the same mantra in my head "The faster you lose it, the faster you gain it back", which I have repeated to him. Though to be fair he isn't starving himself either, so we'll see what happens.
Sunday, April 17, 2016
Saturday, April 16, 2016
Thursday, April 14, 2016
The Truth About Being Fat
After reading articles about people who are extremely heavy and watching numerous episodes of "My 600lb Life" and hearing the excuses as to how and why they got to be the weight they are, I have to wonder why they don't just admit the actual truth: They like food and like to eat.
While I suppose some really do have issues or believe they do, for most it really boils down to that they love food. Because you know what? That is why I am as heavy as I am....I love food, especially sweets. And dislike exercise. Immensely.
Oh I can hear it now: "You've never experienced what I have!" "You don't know what I've been through!"
Well guess again...I have been through stuff. A lot. I was molested several times when I was around 11-12 by our pastor's brother-in-law, a man who went to our church and was well liked and had 3 sons and a daughter (all grown...he was 44) and no one suspected a thing. It started out with me just having an innocent crush on him and he took advantage of it. Being only 11, I was confused and never even thought of telling anyone for some reason. But it really didn't affect me and once it stopped I didn't think about it often. I have no idea if he ever molested any other girls, or if it was just me. I remember his daughter, who was married and had a child, always seemed loving to him as a daughter so I would assume he never tried anything with her. But many years later we heard that he had committed suicide and I often wondered why...did he feel guilty for what he done to me and maybe others? He was a recovered alcoholic when we knew him but also heard he had started drinking again, so maybe that was why. In any case, I was sorry that he had killed himself and hope it wasn't because of me because I was all right. And to this day, I have only told two people (my two closest friends) about this because we just happened to be talking about that sort of thing. I never told my mom or dad or anyone else...I figure why make them feel bad that they didn't know about it to be able to prevent it.
If that isn't enough for you, I had thyroid cancer at the age of 24, I have been through three crap marriages, with a lot of emotional and verbal and physical abuse in the second one, my son has been in and out of childrens' psychiatric hospitals and then in and out of jails and prisons his whole adult life, add to all that my daughter's motorcycle accident that left her in a nursing home, and finally her kids (one of whom lives with us) who suffer from depression. So given all that, you would think I would be a mess, and while it does depress me sometimes when I think about it, I think I am still pretty well-adjusted.
However they aren't the reason I gained weight. Granted I don't have a thyroid and in the beginning that was the start of my weight gain, because up until then I was actually pretty thin. I didn't weigh more than 120lbs in high school. I really started gaining after the birth of my son and couldn't lose it, and then finally the cancer was discovered.
While my lack of thyroid may not help, it isn't the reason why I don't lose weight; I know it is possible because I have done it before. No, my main problem is I like to eat and I don't like to exercise. Period. That being said, it isn't like I will eat a whole pizza or a loaf of bread, or numerous bean sandwiches (ok, I don't eat bean sandwiches at all but I did see it on My 600lb Life once) in one sitting like I have seen and read. I actually eat pretty normal proportions (most of the time) and can get full rather quickly. But other times if the mood strikes me, I can eat cookies and cake and ice cream like nobody's business....very much my downfall, though I do think sugar is addicting. But again, knowing that, it is up to me to do something about it. And let's take exercise....on second thought, let's don't because I hate it.
Bottom line it is my fault. No one else, just me and I accept that. Therein lies the problem with a lot of these people: They don't want to take responsibility for themselves. It is so much easier to blame everything else on their problem rather than look in the mirror (or the doctor who they lie to and say they really don't eat that much anymore...yet the camera shows a different scenario) and tell themselves "Yes, I did this to myself because I like to eat." On the other hand, it seems society is okay with this and even encourages it. Not just with this particular thing but a whole lot of other problems too.
It is all up to me to deal with this and to get the proper mindset to rid myself of this weight. No one else can do it and I don't want people feeling sorry for me for what I have gone through because I don't feel sorry for myself. I actually hate these sob stories I read and see. No I'm not a very sympathetic person, but especially to myself.
So the truth is, I like to eat. And I need to fix it, no one else can do it for me.
While I suppose some really do have issues or believe they do, for most it really boils down to that they love food. Because you know what? That is why I am as heavy as I am....I love food, especially sweets. And dislike exercise. Immensely.
Oh I can hear it now: "You've never experienced what I have!" "You don't know what I've been through!"
Well guess again...I have been through stuff. A lot. I was molested several times when I was around 11-12 by our pastor's brother-in-law, a man who went to our church and was well liked and had 3 sons and a daughter (all grown...he was 44) and no one suspected a thing. It started out with me just having an innocent crush on him and he took advantage of it. Being only 11, I was confused and never even thought of telling anyone for some reason. But it really didn't affect me and once it stopped I didn't think about it often. I have no idea if he ever molested any other girls, or if it was just me. I remember his daughter, who was married and had a child, always seemed loving to him as a daughter so I would assume he never tried anything with her. But many years later we heard that he had committed suicide and I often wondered why...did he feel guilty for what he done to me and maybe others? He was a recovered alcoholic when we knew him but also heard he had started drinking again, so maybe that was why. In any case, I was sorry that he had killed himself and hope it wasn't because of me because I was all right. And to this day, I have only told two people (my two closest friends) about this because we just happened to be talking about that sort of thing. I never told my mom or dad or anyone else...I figure why make them feel bad that they didn't know about it to be able to prevent it.
If that isn't enough for you, I had thyroid cancer at the age of 24, I have been through three crap marriages, with a lot of emotional and verbal and physical abuse in the second one, my son has been in and out of childrens' psychiatric hospitals and then in and out of jails and prisons his whole adult life, add to all that my daughter's motorcycle accident that left her in a nursing home, and finally her kids (one of whom lives with us) who suffer from depression. So given all that, you would think I would be a mess, and while it does depress me sometimes when I think about it, I think I am still pretty well-adjusted.
However they aren't the reason I gained weight. Granted I don't have a thyroid and in the beginning that was the start of my weight gain, because up until then I was actually pretty thin. I didn't weigh more than 120lbs in high school. I really started gaining after the birth of my son and couldn't lose it, and then finally the cancer was discovered.
While my lack of thyroid may not help, it isn't the reason why I don't lose weight; I know it is possible because I have done it before. No, my main problem is I like to eat and I don't like to exercise. Period. That being said, it isn't like I will eat a whole pizza or a loaf of bread, or numerous bean sandwiches (ok, I don't eat bean sandwiches at all but I did see it on My 600lb Life once) in one sitting like I have seen and read. I actually eat pretty normal proportions (most of the time) and can get full rather quickly. But other times if the mood strikes me, I can eat cookies and cake and ice cream like nobody's business....very much my downfall, though I do think sugar is addicting. But again, knowing that, it is up to me to do something about it. And let's take exercise....on second thought, let's don't because I hate it.
Bottom line it is my fault. No one else, just me and I accept that. Therein lies the problem with a lot of these people: They don't want to take responsibility for themselves. It is so much easier to blame everything else on their problem rather than look in the mirror (or the doctor who they lie to and say they really don't eat that much anymore...yet the camera shows a different scenario) and tell themselves "Yes, I did this to myself because I like to eat." On the other hand, it seems society is okay with this and even encourages it. Not just with this particular thing but a whole lot of other problems too.
It is all up to me to deal with this and to get the proper mindset to rid myself of this weight. No one else can do it and I don't want people feeling sorry for me for what I have gone through because I don't feel sorry for myself. I actually hate these sob stories I read and see. No I'm not a very sympathetic person, but especially to myself.
So the truth is, I like to eat. And I need to fix it, no one else can do it for me.
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
Dieting
Like salad...and more salad...and carrots and celery without dip. But actually I think this should read more like "Dieting is when you CAN'T eat food you like and that makes you sad". But hey, that's just me.
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
Ice Cream For Lunch
Ok, I know that having ice cream for lunch isn't exactly diet friendly...ok, it isn't exactly diet friendly at all no matter what time you have it. But yesterday morning this captain came into the office and was talking about the ice cream he had over weekend and after he left, all morning all I could think about was ice cream and how I wanted some. I can't remember the last time I had any since I don't usually eat it in the winter time, though I did buy some last week for Sean Michael but haven't had any of it myself.
So, at lunch time, and it was still in my mind, I went to the commissary and bought 2 of these:
(Now before you say "Two!", I bought one for my co-worker.) And let me just say it was really good and hit the spot (as did all those calories I'm sure). And I didn't have any sweets last night, though probably because we ate dinner later than usual at 7 and then going to bed at 9 helped too.
At least today even though we talked about ice cream I didn't have the same craving for it so that was good. Maybe sometimes you just gotta have it and be done with it. (Well, at least that's my excuse and I'm stickin' to it.)
So, at lunch time, and it was still in my mind, I went to the commissary and bought 2 of these:
At least today even though we talked about ice cream I didn't have the same craving for it so that was good. Maybe sometimes you just gotta have it and be done with it. (Well, at least that's my excuse and I'm stickin' to it.)
Monday, April 11, 2016
Thursday, April 7, 2016
Yo-yoing
Why is this so hard??
Why can't I wrap my brain around doing the right thing, eating the right thing, exercising right, and not doing what I'm not supposed to do.
Too bad my brain doesn't have auto-correct the way my phone does when I'm typing something out.
Why can't I wrap my brain around doing the right thing, eating the right thing, exercising right, and not doing what I'm not supposed to do.
Too bad my brain doesn't have auto-correct the way my phone does when I'm typing something out.
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
Monday, April 4, 2016
Irony At It's Best
The other day I was reading the latest Oprah magazine and there was an article about all these women, including Oprah, and their bodies and losing weight, but then, after turning the last page of said story, there were recipes for the best chocolate chip cookies to make. Really?? Just seems to me there was a better place to put that than right after encouraging women to lose weight, you know?
Sunday, April 3, 2016
Brazilian Restaurants....
aren't really good for diets....or for your heart I would imagine. All the meat being brought to you, skewer after skewer after skewer. We went to one last night in DC, Fogo de Chao, and while it was good, I actually didn't think it was that great, especially for what we paid for our meal. I tried not to eat that much, and I didn't, at least not as much as a lot of people around me, but still I ate enough. I didn't have dessert, well, unless you call the coffee with Godiva liquor and Baileys in it dessert (ok, you could call it that). I did weigh myself this morning and I gained a pound and a half but that's better than what I thought.
Weekend is over so tomorrow is a new start because after all, Mondays are the only day you can
(re)start a diet, right?
Weekend is over so tomorrow is a new start because after all, Mondays are the only day you can
(re)start a diet, right?
Friday, April 1, 2016
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