So we're going to NC tomorrow for the weekend because of it being Mother's Day on Sunday. Which means a weekend of eating too. It is so much easier for me not to eat a lot when I go by myself and don't have to eat in restaurants. But when I have people, i.e. kids, Sean Michael and Kyla (and usually Beau but not this time around I think), they want to eat more than once a day. Dang kids.
lol
I also won't get a lot of drinking water in either I know, which shouldn't be that hard I suppose, but it is. These kind of weekends just screw up everything even though at the moment I wasn't really on a schedule or anything. it's just the thought of it I guess.
And part of it truthfully is I just don't really want to go. These trips are so hard on me, especially when its me having to do all the driving because Hector has to stay home with the dogs since it would be too hard to bring both of them with us. Well maybe not hard but a pain in the butt.
I'm trying to recover the will power I had when I was in California. I don't know where it went because I was feeling so determined when I came home from there. I am sure it is partly because I do feel somewhat depressed from Mom dying and it did take a lot out of me. Yet when I was there taking care of her, I had the will power (well, most of the time) even though the situation wasn't good. Probably because I wasn't letting myself think about what was actually going to happen, even though of course I knew it was.
Hmmm...maybe I should just go back to California and start all over again. I am going for 5 days in 3 weeks, but 5 days isn't long enough and I have plans to eat. So. lol
On the bright side though, I am still chugging the water. :-) Now just to get this other stuff under control...like no more strawberry cheesecake ice cream. Man I wish I had never heard of it.
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