For The Life Of Me

I cannot understand why I am having such a hard time with even trying to lose weight.

I know I have talked about that on here before but it seriously perplexes me.  You would think that given health problems that can arise from being overweight, not liking the way I look, being able to buy cuter clothes, actually wanting to be in pictures, looking half-way decent in a bathing suit, all these just among others, would motivate me to do it. So then why doesn't it? 

And I know how to do it. I know how to make menus and grocery lists and eating healthy plans, and exercising schedules, etc, yet, I don't.  Really it isn't all that difficult.  But to actually sit down and do it, and then follow through with them, my head feels blocked and refuses to let it get through.

I look on Pinterest and see all these different ways to journal and plan and I pin them, hoping it will jar me into sensibility and getting on that bandwagon. Yet, I don't. 

For the life of me I just don't get it.