And The Month is Done...

...and nothing was accomplished.


September is another month (but with my trip and all, it will probably be useless as well.)

ANOTHER Wasted Month

Yeah yeah I know.

Nothing to see here. Just one more set of 31 days where I haven't done anything to help myself.  The funny (or not so funny, really) thing is, it is always on my mind.     So why then, do I not do something about it?

I know that is a rhetorical question, as I seem to always be asking this of myself.  I don't want to end up with diabetes or heart disease, etc, and in essence killing myself with these diseases, and you would think that with all the knowledge there is about these types of things that I would certainly put forth the effort of trying to lose weight so that they don't happen to me.  So why then do I not?


And I don't like being this heavy and wearing big clothes and having a double chin and trying to hide myself in pictures. So then why do I not try?


 I want to blame it on being depressed, which I do think is part of it, but it isn't all of it.  Part of it is no will power. Part of it is, okay probably most of it actually, is I just like to eat. With sweets being on the top of the list as we all know. So all that makes for losing weight a very difficult thing.  It is my fault though. No one else to blame but myself.  No one did this to me, no one forces anything on me, no one tells me to eat. I did this all to myself and I take responsibility for it. So then why do I not take the responsibility to lose?


I really don't know. I don't know why I do not have the mind set and the absolute want-to to do it.

But I sure wish I did.

Funny How That Works...

...or doesn't.

Been There

Because, you know you can't just throw it away...

Exactly What Happened

Yep.

I Wonder....

...if I didn't have a sweet tooth, would it be something else?

Monday Musing

I have fallen off the water wagon this weekend. But I am drinking again today. (Hmmm...that didn't sound quite right...but you know what I mean.)


I weighed 2 more ounces than I did last week but my scale is kind of acting wonky so I'm not really sure how much I weigh.


I really need to stop eating steak on weekends. We've really gotten into a bad habit there I think. (And never mind that freezer full of ice cream.)


I'm not exactly giving up, but I know until I come back from California I'm going to be eating a lot, especially on our trip. Still, I'm not going to go overboard now. Hopefully.


I wish dieting was as easy as eating.

In My Freezer...

Enough said.

Ummm....No......

Though I do like peanut butter...on white bread...with jelly...or honey...

Will I...

...EVER lose weight?

...ever stop craving sweets?

...ever start exercising?

...eat healthy?

Part of Me...

...just wants to give up.

Another Month, Again

Now we're into August.


Let's see what we can do with this month.


(By the way, I did buy Skinny Cow fudgesicles and Outshine Fruit bars. And I'm trying to stay away from the commissary now so I don't buy any B&Js.)